Day 22...Back to basics

I haven't mentioned infertility in quite a while and yesterday "Shar" left a comment asking how D and I are dealing with the male factor (MF) diagnosis. She and her husband have just found out they have a MF problem too. When we first found out, we wanted a solution. We tried vitamins, bags of frozen peas in the evenings, boxers, urologist after urologist, drugs, and finally exercise--which was the only thing that helped improve D's count. Of course, we were devastated and still are. These days, we've shifted our thinking somewhat to getting healthy and feeling better. It just doesn't feel right to go forward without doing this first. Granted, when we started this 3-hour-tour-to-hell, we were both younger and I was in much better shape-- but that was then and here we are now. I really don't know how we "deal" with it all. Just wake up and get outta bed...most days. I've definitely been depressed--am depressed--wanted to run away. Still here. We've been seeing a therapist together and it's helped more than anything else. So that's it. We're focusing on something that we can control and have let get out of control--for now.

Shar, if you have any other questions feel free to email me. Also, visit Mel's blog list and find others dealing with a male factor diagnosis. Which reminds me I really need to update my blogroll! I have so many new friends and readers to add :)