Bella Vida

Married for 6 years. Trying to have a baby almost as long. Living a Beautiful Life.

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Married & Trying to have a baby for almost 4 years. Dealing with MF (male factor infertility).

Sunday, September 16, 2007

No mystery

It's cd1 and I tend to go into my hole at this point. Monthly. So yeah, that's all. I'm definitely going to be catching up on your blogs and commenting away the next few days :)

Anyway, I just finished reading 2, count 'em--TWO--books on infertility. The first I read was "Conception Chronicles" by three friends Patty, Shelly and Courtney. This book definitely has some humor to it, and in my humble opinion, is mostly geared toward couples that are 6-months to 1-year into TTC unsuccessfully. Or for those that have been trying longer than that and have not seen a doctor or reproductive endocrinologist. So yeah, I'm 3-years, 2 gyno's, 3 urologists, and 3 RE's into this freakin' mess of the millennium. I got the basics totally covered.

The other book I read was Jenna's book, "The Empty Picture Frame." I love this book. It really is a testament to exactly what you go through when dealing with IF. Totally honest and accurate. Even though I haven't had an IUI or gone through IVF...yet, I could still totally relate to Jenna's struggle. I read her words and felt her pain as though it were my own. The book caused me to think deeply about IVF and ask what if it doesn't work? Like most of us, I never expected getting pregnant and having a baby would be this hard. We're taught as children that hard work equals success. IF isn't like that and eventually you learn that life doesn't owe you shit. Anyway, you can purchase Jenna's book through her Website. I highly recommend it. Plus, a portion 0f books sales goes to Infertility Support when you buy it through Jenna's Store.

Here's our* empty picture frame. It's been on our hallway wall for a couple of years now. Sad isn't it? And what's even sadder it that there is no guarantee there will ever be a picture in that empty spot.

*Pics of my husband and I as newborn babies in the hospital and in our cribs.


Blogger SaraS-P said...

Ouch. Sorry about CD1.

I may have to buy Jenna's book. I just finished Waiting for Daisy and I realized I really needed some hope, or least understanding.

I hope you get to fill that frame someday.

10:36 AM  
Blogger LJ said...

Ugh, I am so sorry D. Let me know if you need to get out at all this week...

10:40 AM  
Blogger JJ said...

CD 1 just sucks...and I hope and pray you get to fill your picture frame soon!

11:54 AM  
Blogger Meghan said...

Sorry, CD1 always sucks. And that picture frame...I can't believe you keep it up. I'd have that thing tucked away so far into my basement I might never find it again.

Hope it gets filled soon!

12:30 PM  
Blogger Carrie said...

The empty frame is so sad, you're very strong about having that around.

And the no guarantee that it'll ever be filled is what gets to me so much too.

1:12 PM  
Blogger Dianne/Flutter said...

Boo to CD 1.

The photos were so cute. And I truly hope that you are get to fill that picture frame.

3:07 PM  
Blogger Lea Bee said...

sorry about cd1 :(.

the picture didn't show up for me on the blog, but i totally feel you anyway.

i have a book that you can forget about called 'a few good eggs' by maureen regan and someone else. basically the advice is DONT WAIT before trying to have a kid. yea, thanks.

6:38 PM  
Blogger lub said...

Thanks for sharing those book reviews. I've read Waiting for Daisy, Taking Charge of Your Fertility, Help Getting through IUI and IVF, and one more that I can't think of. I like them all but none brings me a baby. Life is really hard and cd 1 makes it suck even harder.

8:40 PM  
Blogger Foreverhopeful said...

So sorry about CD1. I agree you're brave to keep that picture frame. I once collected a bunch of baby stuff in hopes I would use it one day. Last year, I gave everything away. I hope you get to fill your picture frame one day.

5:03 PM  
Blogger Kristen said...

I'm so sorry about the witch coming into town. That frame is so sweet and I sure hope you can add a pic to it soon. XOXO

4:18 PM  

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