Bella Vida

Married for 6 years. Trying to have a baby almost as long. Living a Beautiful Life.

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Married & Trying to have a baby for almost 4 years. Dealing with MF (male factor infertility).

Tuesday, April 17, 2007


I live in the MD/DC/VA area. For those of you not familiar and wondering how I can list 3-states as an area--we live in MD, my hubby works daily in VA and I'm in DC weekly for various reasons. We're in an area where they are all easily accessible. With what happened yesterday at VA tech, living in this area and seeing faces of local people is so hard. I just can't do it. I'm avoiding the news. Which is something I usually do anyway. So much sadness. My prayers go out to all the families, friends and victims.
My cat is making me nuts. He has a routine of waking and wanting to go into the shower to wash up after my hubby has showered. He also likes to lick (yuck) the shower water! I'm trying to figure out a better way cuz it bugs me that he licks the shower water. But if I don't let him, he dips his paws into the drinking bowl he shares with the dog. Which causes the dog to have to drink kitty litter water. Can't be good. Suggestions anyone?

Background info
Whenever I find a new infertility (IF) blog I like to read the summary or start with the 1st months postings to find out what the IF background story is. I'll probably make this a sidebar summary eventually when I figure it out. Although I've had this blog for a while, I haven't felt like writing in it until now. So here goes...

Hubbs and I married in March 2004. I had been on BCP for almost 10 years and stopped taking them in May 2004. Almost immediately I felt like something was off. I went to see my GYN and she sent me for a vaginal US which showed 2-very, very small fibroids. My doc said it was nothing and the pinches and pain/fullness I was feeling couldn't be from the fibroids. I disagreed and that was the last time I saw her. The fibroids totally freaked me out. My mom had a big fibroid problem when I was younger and ended up having a hysterectomy. Total panic and obsession. I read everything I could on infertility and fertility. I started charting and temping and joined message boards and made cyber-friends. I bought books and all kinds of herbs. I learned that an RE was an IF specialist and I looked for one in my area. He ordered blood tests to check my hormone levels and an HSG to make sure my tubes weren't blocked. After months of being on the herbs--my fibroids actually disappeared. I seriously think this stuff is a miracle in a bottle. Balanced out my system and even got rid of my cramps!

Anyway, my tests were normal. So hubbs and I met with the RE and he ordered a semen analysis (SA). Wham! There's the problem. Count was 300,000 post wash. Motility was good and morphology couldn't be determined b/c of the low count. I become obsessed with getting his numbers up. Again, here I go with the reading and the posting and the vitamins. He had another SA in three months and it was the same. Vitamins hadn't helped a lick.

At this point I'm totally educated thanks to Internet U, and I think he must have a varicocele. So off we go to the urologist. Nope. Damn. I also found a message board for male IF and I learned about hypogonadism and pituitary tumors and hubby has an MRI. No problem there. Doc tests his hormones and determines his testosterone is very low--201--and he wants to put him on testosterone. Thanks to my stellar education from Net U, I know this would do the exact opposite of what we want. I suggest that the doc look into to some Net U courses for himself and that's the last time we see him. I find another urologist who is suppose to be a fertility expert. Well she orders more blood tests, and as we already know, hubbs has low T. Are you ready for this one--she says she thinks he has sleep apnea and that it's what could be causing his low T and count. Ummmm...thanks, but no.

By now we're 2-years into this and totally deflated and tired. We stop vitamins and herbs and I just basically give up. But not really though b/c I'm still hoping for a miracle each and every month. After temping and charting and examining cervical mucus for so long, it's hard to ignore--even when you stop. Every month gets harder and the tears keep coming. I find ways to blame myself and wonder did it not work this month because I had too much wine or didn't stay in bed long enough after or exercised or was too stressed. Hubbs has no idea how much I torture myself even though I know the odds all too well. Thanks again to Internet U.

Hubbs decided last year to start going to the gym after being rushed to the hospital for a panic attack. He thought he was having a heart attack. In February of this year--I don't know why, but I decided to start looking for a fertility urologist again and I found one and really easily this time. I made an appointment and off we went. More blood work and another SA. The SA comes back with numbers that we and the doc couldn't believe. 25 million total and 14 million per mil. Wow! All because of the gym we suspect. The morphology is not good though with only 1% normal forms and 77% with heads too small. Insert-->obsession<--here. Vitamins and Arimidex are the solution we all hope and pray.

So here we are today. Hubby has been on the meds and vitamins for over a month. He loves the way he feels. Says he feels like he has so much more energy and doesn't have tons of anxiety anymore. No real sides effects--except tons of We feel somewhat hopeful. Hubby feels a lot more than me. I have found other bloggers with hubby's on the meds too, but no one has said "oh yeah, it worked for us" yet.

I'm now worried about was is going on with me too. Spotting before my period is not a good sign. I'n not sure about endometriosis and I've never had a lap. I stopped my testing after the HSG. I'm taking my herbs again--although not consistently and I guess I need to go to see a doc again soon. Been a while.

Enough for now. Please leave me message if you stop by :)

The meds didn't change his semen analysis results, but they did bring his T back to a normal level. I had a sonohystogram and all is normal.


Blogger Shelby said...

Sorry to comment twice, I started at the first post and went up from there. I'm having the same issues finding a lot of good info on male IF issues. I guess not many men want to talk about it. Hopefully your new urologist will really help, and the morph will skyrocket. My hubs is only 1% too.

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Blogger dmarie said...

Hi Shelby!
Thanks for commenting! We're actually waiting on the blood work results today to see if the meds are helping his T. Fingers crossed.

Email me about the knitting. I would love to learn :)

3:04 PM  

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